Sometimes I like to sit and wonder if I’m ever going to get that love life that everybody looks for. You know the one that we hear about from family, friends and even movies. Where two people fall in love and live happily ever after. You know exactly what I’m talking about. It makes me sick and tired when people tell me that I’m to young and that I need to stop looking. It’s been 21years of not looking and I still haven’t found it! :/ For now I have to live with sleeping around with older random guys, so they can fill and fake my heart up with love even if it is only for a minute or two. I’d laugh and think that maybe just maybe I could be a hardcore sex addict. Why you may ask? Because I have slept around with a couple dozen guys since I turned 18. I’m safe and clean here, no disease I have been checked. Lol. But the problem here is so much bigger than just a sex problem! It may be the top layer of a bigger and greater problem boiling in my life that’s not ready to erupt. For now is it to hard to ask the universe and maybe even God for a caring, loving, tall, funny, outgoing, honest, top, masculine, stocky, and great in bed guy to be mine? I think not! Honestly and I’m being very honest here I’ll take whatever I can get at this point, and that is so sad to say….